:: Thursday, December 16, 2004
ZEN AND THE ART OF..
I've come to the conclusion of late (or perhaps too late), that I live a very zen lifestyle..
now more than likely I'm totally fucking up on the concept of "Zen" here.. since, hey.. I only know it's meaning in context.. from all the mindnumbing tv.. teaching me the ways of the world.. oh YES.. glowing box like thing.. GUIDE ME.. show me the way.. be my surrogate mother, father, girlfriend, wife, mistress, cat, dog, toilet bowl of the filfth of humanity.. YAY! hmmm.. it really doesn't help on a topic of zen here, to be so wide ranging with the red herrings.. no, must stay on topic.. hmmm.. red herring.. the most deceptive of fish.. look, over there.. RED HERRING!.. makes me wonder how the red herring isn't extinct.. I mean, shit.. if we're constantly being distracted by red herrings.. wouldn't we have eaten them all by now? hmm.. perhaps taking that too literally..
yeah.. I live a very zen lifestyle.. here in my little surreality bubble..
working my creative path thru life.. like a tiny laser beam and fuck the rest.. focused on my singular task.. be the music, be the art, be the graphic design, the web design, the blog.. and I've realised after many a year I've just about forsaken everything else.. likely to my total ruination.. working away tirelessly in this little room.. big projects.. small projects.. meaningful projects.. sizeable work contracts.. small clients.. albums.. singles.. ep's.. soundtracks.. which makes me wonder, hey.. fukkit.. is there some kinda monastery for nutty fucked up musician type freaks? but.. y'know.. more stoner hippy / Almost Famous updated to the 21st century, but still with all the flower child Kate Hudson hippy groupies? doing nothing but exploring the intricate mysteries of fucked up beats, wall blurring basslines and other such nonsense? coz really.. I'm fucken useless for much else.. and it'd be kinda cool to have an actual community of life minded idiots to work this shit with.. hmmmm, perhaps they call those things "asylums".. I mean sure, I'm also a ninja elite graphic designer.. but I'm awfully zen with that shit too.. so much for this whole "renaissance" bullshit.. I'm a man of very few talents.. most of them now appearing to be obselete.. and none of the big full-time employers are returning my emails, letters or phonecalls..
it's a bit of a paradox here.. to be SO busy with this stuff.. and yet still classified as "unemployed".. or as I jokingly refer it to, as "freelance".. working endless hours.. and yet.. no money.. yeah, the capitalist system sucks.. and it damn near sucks everything into it's singularity.. it'self a very zen concept.. CONSUME / PUMP OUT MORE CONSUMERS.. brainwashing with shiny ads and mindnumbing economically driven political soundbytes.. it's ALL about the bottom line.. and fitting in.. and consuming.. or being consumed.. and me, the creative red herring.. I live outside this system.. I defy it.. yet, dammit.. I so wanna be a part of this damn sheep herd.. but, by MY RULES dammit.. yeah.. we love talking about "free will".. but we sure as hell don't practice it as a society..
and yeah, I dunno if the zen shit's working..
I mean, dont get me wrong.. I'm bloody good at what I do.. and I'll still do wot I do best..
but either I need a team of people working for me who aren't so tunnel visioned as I am as I be the music or wot'ever, so they could help me get a heads up on wot the fuck is out there (and ways to actually make MONEY on this career).. or, fukkit.. I'm really gotta get off me arse and engage in the wider world finally, instead of this bullshit.. (which in it'self is a funny concept.. considering I'm speaking to you all here..)
zen and art..
they work so well together..
creating nice internalised world of thoughtful dialogue and insight..
it's a nice place to live..
and yet, none of it has any relation to the lives you lead out there..
:: Spoz 3:14 AM |