:: Wednesday, July 14, 2004
I AM JACK'S BORED OUT'VE HIS SKULL
I dunno if it's because of the mindless suburban weekends with nothing better to do.. or winter.. or endless tweakin' with this song.. yet ANOTHER song.. that seems to go nowhere.. pissed off with the frustrated creative process.. pissed off with waiting for things to fall into place.. tired of the same old routine.. tired of life.. or seriously in fatigue.. wondering where the HELL everyone on my MSN contact list went for the last week..?
either way, I'm seriously struggling to give a fuck about anything.. toiling away.. day in day out.. bored out've me FUCKING SKULL.. mid winter really giving me the shits.. looking for something, ANYTHING to juice the inspiration canisters.. and get shit rolling again..
I read somewhere they give people in alaska and all these other wacky scandanavian countries near the poles sunlight therapy, they get these special light goggles that simulate the suns UV and brightness, they bung it on for a few hours a day, to help alleviate winter depression.. their reasoning being.. more sunlight = more happy.. well.. by that reckoning, I'd be emptying a revolver point blank to me face by now.. but of course, quite clearly I aint doing that.. and, unless I develop some kinda TYLER DURDEN shit.. I'm not nearly likely to do that in the future..
I dunno, maybe if I was a DAY PERSON.. I wouldn't be all crazy right now.. looking for BLEEPS and BLOOPS for this fucken song.. coz I'd be gettin' me daily recommended dose of cancer inducing sunlight.. and everything would've neatly solved themselves into a happy ALBUM CD full of phat shit to phreak them peeps sideways..
or fuckit.. perhaps I'll STILL be waiting for shit to figure itself out in me head.. still pissed off with a song that wont resolve itself.. pissed off with the endless flood of SPAM mail keeping me company..
eeeesh.. WINTER maaan, take it or leave it? either way.. I'M DONE ALREADY!
:: Spoz 4:40 AM |