:: Thursday, July 10, 2003
I think I'm living in some kinda multi-taskin' nightmare..
it hasn't got me all that worried.. coz, I'm being cheerfully oblivious to it..
but.. every now and then, I catch a glimpse of it..
and it kinda freaks me out at the complexity of it all..
in another sense, I sorta buzz over how insane it all is.. ;)
how MANY crazy things am I running all at once here?
I mean.. shit, there's so much stuff spinning in my head.. if there wuz any more.. it'd reach critical density and speed, collapse into a blackhole.. and take my brain with it.. normally they'd hire a team of people to deal with it.. but here I am, keeping it all somehow balanced in my head..
yeah.. ok, to explain for the 99.999999% of my audience who are not ME, living in my own head..
my thinkin' out loud / train of thought here is in relation to my funny little music hobby.. which is increasingly developin' into some full-blown insane career agenda..
on the basic creative level..
it's really all quite logical..
I mean.. there's complexity issues.. but they behave by their own little defined rules of physics..
there's a universe of music.. and more or less.. I've mapped all I need to know..
it behaves by funny little rules..
rules I can bend, break.. control.. have a bit of fun with..
damn it's fun :)
I think up songs.. I finish songs..
idea A logically leads (down some windy squiggle path) to finished song B..
but.. move this all out into the outside world..
and this simple creative process expands into this huuuge snarling beast of insanity..
organising radio airplay..
organising media recordings..
I'm simplifying the issue here.. but.. WHOA.. is MY head spinning..
I mean, they get teams of people to do this right?
I'd like to think.. quite soon, this stuff will just compress down into something that makes total sense..
coz, at the moment.. I'm relatively clueless about a lot of these things..
I'm just "music making" monkey..
but at the moment..
it's fascinating experiencing the limits of wot my brain can multitask at once..
the limitations of my brain hardware..
once this conceptual migraine stops..
and my head stops screaming..
I'll really enjoy this..
kinda reminds me.. of back in UNI, when.. stupid ME, I decided it'd be a good idea to direct and write a script for a movie.. when I had NO previous experience.. and WHOAAAA that wuz a fun migraine :)
:: Spoz 12:21 AM |