:: Tuesday, June 24, 2003
channeling some real dark broodin' negative energy here..
working it all into a minimal little song called "hollow"..
somewhat summing up feelings of general emptiness, coldness, being distant and alien, lifeless apathy..
days of little sunlight, overcast growling skies, skeleton trees.. draggin' y'self thru the winter days.. in a daze..
just waiting for some sign of life.. wondering if there's any meaning to anything.. wondering when the sun with shine again..
bored staring at the walls.. mind so focused and carpel tunnel it could shatter cement with it's intensity..
not saying I'd actually admit to feeling these disparate moods..
guess I just felt the need for a creative outburst to address it..
before it bubbles so violently to my surface awareness..
that it'd distract me from my usual cheerful nuttiness..
which I guess is the comical polarity of being a creative loon such as myself..
I'm actually quite cheerful.. yet, I'm still full of all THIS negative energy..
and thus, is my zen of being..
somehow.. it'll all be for good..
especially if this song actually sounds cool enough..
:: Spoz 3:36 AM |