:: Tuesday, January 07, 2003
come to think of it..
I had a similar feeling of guilt to this..
at the end of Year 12 exams..
after months of months of endless sleepless nights of obssessive studying..
after the exams are finished and done with..
there you are.. left with nothing to do..
and, you seriously start to freak out..
WOT DO I DO NOW?
I'd actually have this guilt nightmares after those exams..
where.. I'd find myself back in school.. having to repeat the last year again..
this dopey feeling of shame..
coz, somehow I didn't finish.. somehow it wuzn't enough..
I even kept having these dreams.. right into university..
it wuz damn hard to actually let go..
and just fucken chill..
and here I am.. once again twitchin' around..
I've finished 6 months of work on a Chemistry Text Book..
last deadline, just last Thursday..
I'm living in the aftermath..
I want to take a moment to reflect, to "smell the roses" proverbially..
and then I'm hit by Centrelinks damn annoying "guilt trip" style letter..
and, yup.. once again, I can't fucken let go..
DAMN YOU CENTRELINK!
:: Spoz 4:11 AM |